The busiest time of year, right? Truly, it has been for all of us…we commute, work, take care of others in our lives (which is 20 of 24 hours), and throw in the holidays, and where did we go?
Like, where did you go behind all those things you have to do. If they were life-size cut-outs like movie theater promo props for all of stuff demanding our attention, planted in front of you, where the hell did you go? Do you feel like you’ve stuffed your needs and plans for yourself up in an empty grocery bag for now and tossed them in the back of your car until the holidays are over? I kinda do.
I finished my semester of night classes last week, that killed me. Also last week, one kid graduated college (road trip), another came home from college and I took her to urgent care (she’s ok now), work, and dare I say a few cry-it-outs in the car about things unrelated to the aforementioned. Thank God for my car.
The busiest time of year has slowed my journey even more.
I hadn’t had time to write until this afternoon, and that’s only because I’m alone at work for another 30 minutes before I meet all my kids to Christmas shop together (complicating that whole surprise gift thing, whatever).
So, it’s been slow, just basically taking time now and then to have mini heart attacks or writhing despondency over not having fulfilled my future plans. Ya, I’m ok, you’re ok.
We keep going, right?
I mean, that’s why I’m here, and we’re here. As a reminder that we are still able to move forward, and it’s normal to get slowed down by extra work in other areas. Our kids only graduate a few times, and gradeschool graduation is just as bittersweet as college, although, tbh, there is a major sense of relief after getting a kid allll the wayyyyy through it.
I realized just about an hour ago, that I’m going to have to pick up my pace in the one area I have control over. I’ll take a January class for my program, which I didn’t want to do, because I’m freaking exhausted. You probably are, too.
You’re right there. Its mid-December, and I don’t know what holidays you celebrate in December, but…sigh…it’s work. You have to make sure everyone is happy, satisfied, comfortable, does what they are supposed to do, plus hunt and gather all sorts of things from food to presents to repairing things, or a hundred other possibilities.
Take heart, You’re still YOU. It’s ok to step away, look at yourself. Read a note, write yourself a note. Download one of those positivity apps, like “I am”. I use the free one, because…and some of the messages I truthfully ignore, but a lot of them I like, it’s a little lift. (I have zero relationship with them, btw.)
Anyway, thanks for giving me a reason to write down some thoughts, and if you’d like to subscribe, please do! Or just come back later to visit. I think I’ve gotten through the most stressful part of the year, wait, no, I take that back, I’m still in it until Dec 27, D**n it!
The Slow Sojourn 